Thoughts

have been wanting to post for a very long time but just don't have the mood or find the time to. JJ was v sick last week so he "pontang" school for 3 days. What else! but bough again. Poor boy :( But boy, was he happy! Wed, we went City Square after seeing doc. Friday, I brought him to Paragon with my friends' gathering. he likes shopping center! haha. He also likes to go to "mum-mum place" aka coffeeshop near my place. Go "oh-up" aka lift cos it says going up! And last but not least ==> PLAYGROUND! :)

I love my babies very very much. While mummy is still at home, I will try to take care of u to the best of my abilities.



These days will think twice before I spend on things like pedi, magazines. will pause and think "do i really need it?" unless i'm in a really bad mood n needs retail therapy then it's a different story. haha.

These few days have been really pretty tiring. Celeste is getting worst with her cough and it caused alot of wind in her tummy. She will cry with high shrieks when she feels uncomfortable especially feeding time. Must put ruyi oil before feeding her. Heartache to see her cry until like this. Brought her to see a GP (highly recommended by my 1st BIL), hell! Doesn't seem very expert with checking babies and prescribed antibiotics,etc. And best part, charge me $76! And he said that must bring go hospital if don't get better by Wed. Allan and I were really worried and we brought her to see Dr Ong@ Mt A in the afternoon. Virus attack again and is on nebuliser. We really heartache to see her always on medication. By right, she will have enough antibodies to last her till 6 months cos I breastfed her. But I guessed the viruses are too strong this time round. Allan actually suggested that he takes 2 weeks off from work and we keep JJ away from school so that he and Celeste can recover fully. and our nieces stay at their home.

We will fetch them to and back from school thou cos PILs are gg for holidays. Hmm, shall discuss with Allan. my tots he can still go work. I will fetch nieces to school and bring their maid over, then bring their maid back together with their dinner to fetch my nieces and send them home.

Ok, my lil baby Celeste is tossing in her cot liao.

Have a great day everyone!

due to technical difficulties, this post was written at 5+am on 19-Oct but unable to post then. :)

Return to Work in 3 weeks' time!

I am returning to work in 3 weeks' time!!! RINNNNNNNNG! alarm is ringing. My babies are not ready to let mummy go to work.

Jayden is getting stickier to me. And when I asked him,"Mummy go office okay?" He says,"Cannot."

As for Celeste, she is used to me being the sole caregiver especially when helper went back for 3 weeks. Sometimes when passed to helper to take care these days, she will wail loudly till I carry her and there she just stopped the yelling. Am starting to get helper to take care of her in the afternoon for a few hours. But after the weekend, she is back to the "mummy mode" again. Teared the house down again today until I carried her and she stopped 3 seconds after I took over.

Mummy really MISSSSSS U babies! It's lots of adjustments for all of us. Mummy hasn't been working for 4months and has to revived her engines with turbo soon! I am treasuring every single day with u babies. Though mummy is quite tired these days from the previous 5 night saga from Celeste (kept waking up) + my Lasik + Jayden keeps asking to be carried, I feel as if I am going to faint sometimes due to exhaustion.

Managed to catch a nap to re-charged my battery. Need to get my energy level up again.

Still have about 400+ emails to screen through(down from 700). Now these emails are being archived. Trying to sort based on subject header. Can only read those important ones when I return to work.

Really don feel like returning to work. I am getting attached to my babies so much! love to see their every growth, their smiles, their naughty, cheeky little antics. sob sob...

Love getting morning kisses from my son. he now knows how to do the muack (used to just put his face close when we say kiss kiss).
When I pinch his nose in the morning, he pinches mine back.
Gonna miss my Wednesday dates with hubby (his off day).

EMO..........

LASIK

Before having Jayden, I had contemplated with doing Lasik. Then came pregnancy and after my 2nd pregnancy, finally I had decided to do it! Since still on maternity leave.

Actually the main push factor is that I am wearing contact lenses every single day cos it is cumberson to chase after Jayden wearing glasses. And I take them off only when I nap/sleep/bath. Sometimes I am too tired and I actually fell asleep in them n it causes my eyes to itch and become very dry. This is no good for the long run. Hence decided to lasik my eyes for the good of my next 10 years before I start to have "lao hua".

I was supposed to go for the consultation cum evaluation of my eyes. Didn't actually tink of doing it on the same day. But who knows there is a slot that evening, so on the date of 1st-Oct, I had my eyes lasiked.

Pretty nervous while I was in the OT. But as we mothers know, what can be worst than giving birth. keke... I had to remain calm and be brave and relax....

It's best to go home and sleep right after before the numbing effect went off and you start to feel all the effects of the surgery.

For me, not so much of tearing but my nose was blocked and became runny. eyes n nose r all connected but my nose is more sensitive n reacted more than my eyes.

It was sharp vision right after the op but just smoky...

I just saw in the Papers that Shingawa Lasik center is charging $1200 per eye for Wavefront lasik. Felt very "tui". Mine is Custom Laser which is $2688 both eyes. Wavefront is better than Custom for night vision. Damn...

Anyway, hope this dryness will go away soon.

Friends

Today's post shall be dedicated to my good friends. If u r reading this, you are considered one. :)

Throughout my life, besides my schoolmates where firm friendships were formed. The rest are formed from various workplaces. We have become so close like "work spouse" though lesbian type. keke... cos it's with female colleagues. NOT Male.

Where we share the ups and downs of our life as well. Give support to one another in need of times be it personal or work. Where we see each other more often than anybody apart from our family. Whom has seen us through marriage, motherhood...

There are some whom has entered the "good friend" category but has left as well as it takes 2 hands to clap to make the friendship last. Though it brings certain sadness at that point in time why it has happened, I had learnt to accept that perhaps it was just not meant to last.

Forum mummies is a special group too cos we have kids ard the same age. I only joined the one during Jayden time cos the first one is "more special" being a rookie mum. those that are more "gam" stay on to be good pals too. We bond over our kids. keke...

Lastly, I am truly blessed to have u as my great pal no matter which point of my life we met.

Ok, time to give my kids medicine before turning in.
Nitezzzzzzzz

Hmm...

Sometimes I try to ignore. ignore the emotional turbulence of a Gemini. One moment they are ok, the next moment their face is like the whole world owes them smtg when nothing even happened. It just spoils the day at times of thunder. After a day of this, I thank god I am not a SAHM.

I need to be positive and cheerful towards the kids.